Learn to Understand
A little bit about me:
1. Hobbies
- reading
- writing
- music (listening, playing instruments, singing)
- anything artsy
2. Personality Traits
- shy
- intuitive
- stubborn
- sensitive
- understanding
- compassionate
- blunt
3. Things I love
- long talks
- goats
- people who don't try to get everything but
rather focus on just being there for me
- God
4. Things I hate
- being the center of attention
- people being angry with me
- that I can't pick up on certain social cues
- being misunderstood
- BEING SICK
It has recently come to my attention that when it first came out that I was sick many of my peers suspected that I was faking it to get attention. Let me just tell you that realization hurts. I can't believe that people that I have grown up with my entire life could be so ignorant as to think I am that type of person. Sure, I'm not the most popular and I certainly don't know how to talk to people... I admit that. But REALLY? You honestly think I wanted to walk into my first day of my SENIOR year in high school with a tube on my face?! Um news flash I didn't. My senior year was nothing like what I had imagined it to be. I went through hell and have only gotten worse since then. I had hidden my illness for years and then suddenly couldn't anymore and it sucked. I lost friends over this and all of a sudden I was being accused of having an eating disorder or just wanting attention. You have got to be kidding me.
I'm only going to say this once so listen closely. If you don't truly know someone's character and you haven't actually spoken to them about what battle they are facing in their life then you should really think before you speak. Words can cut deeper than you would ever imagine. Even finding out a year later some of the things that were said behind my back has really hurt me. I have always tried to be a friend to those who need one and to be someone that people could count on and trust. Sure I mess up and yes I can be rude and hateful. I am not perfect but I try to do what I can to shine God's light on the people around me. If some of you had just talked to me and gotten to know me I feel that a lot of the hurt that I have suffered over that past year could have been spared.
If there is anything that I could teach the world it would be this:
Some people are just different and we as a species tend to hate and neglect different but we need to band together and change this. We may not understand others differences but we can learn to love them as they are. Don't judge someone until you get to know them. Often times, the things that you say can truly damage someone's spirit. Be careful, friends, you never know what the person next to you may be going through. As someone who has not only dealt with a chronic illness but has also suffered through countless family "troubles", anxiety, panic attacks, depression... you name it I've been there... I can confirm that it's pretty easy to hide your personal life from the outside world. However, it doesn't make it any less painful when someone tramples your spirit. Just be courteous. That's all I ask.
1. Hobbies
- reading
- writing
- music (listening, playing instruments, singing)
- anything artsy
2. Personality Traits
- shy
- intuitive
- stubborn
- sensitive
- understanding
- compassionate
- blunt
3. Things I love
- long talks
- goats
- people who don't try to get everything but
rather focus on just being there for me
- God
4. Things I hate
- being the center of attention
- people being angry with me
- that I can't pick up on certain social cues
- being misunderstood
- BEING SICK
It has recently come to my attention that when it first came out that I was sick many of my peers suspected that I was faking it to get attention. Let me just tell you that realization hurts. I can't believe that people that I have grown up with my entire life could be so ignorant as to think I am that type of person. Sure, I'm not the most popular and I certainly don't know how to talk to people... I admit that. But REALLY? You honestly think I wanted to walk into my first day of my SENIOR year in high school with a tube on my face?! Um news flash I didn't. My senior year was nothing like what I had imagined it to be. I went through hell and have only gotten worse since then. I had hidden my illness for years and then suddenly couldn't anymore and it sucked. I lost friends over this and all of a sudden I was being accused of having an eating disorder or just wanting attention. You have got to be kidding me.
I'm only going to say this once so listen closely. If you don't truly know someone's character and you haven't actually spoken to them about what battle they are facing in their life then you should really think before you speak. Words can cut deeper than you would ever imagine. Even finding out a year later some of the things that were said behind my back has really hurt me. I have always tried to be a friend to those who need one and to be someone that people could count on and trust. Sure I mess up and yes I can be rude and hateful. I am not perfect but I try to do what I can to shine God's light on the people around me. If some of you had just talked to me and gotten to know me I feel that a lot of the hurt that I have suffered over that past year could have been spared.
If there is anything that I could teach the world it would be this:
Some people are just different and we as a species tend to hate and neglect different but we need to band together and change this. We may not understand others differences but we can learn to love them as they are. Don't judge someone until you get to know them. Often times, the things that you say can truly damage someone's spirit. Be careful, friends, you never know what the person next to you may be going through. As someone who has not only dealt with a chronic illness but has also suffered through countless family "troubles", anxiety, panic attacks, depression... you name it I've been there... I can confirm that it's pretty easy to hide your personal life from the outside world. However, it doesn't make it any less painful when someone tramples your spirit. Just be courteous. That's all I ask.
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