That One Sick Girl

Well, lets be honest this is just a mess. Guy's, gallbladders are just mean sometimes, however, it's acting up has made me realized just how blessed I am. I have some of the best friend's, an outstanding family, and this one guy that I like to call my boyfriend sometimes; when he is being sweet that is. Otherwise he is just another pain in the rear end [don't worry honey I'm just kidding].... Oh yeah and my spunky nut of a dog! Anyway's, I have a bit of a public thank you that I would like to share with you all. Mom, thank you for always praying for me, even when I don't ask. I feel them. Thank you for being my best friend, my disciplinarian, my rock during the times when I thought that my world was falling apart. You have protected me from the world, and now you are serving as a guide to slowly allow me to venture out into that world I once needed so much protection from. Thank you for loving me when I'm being your "good kid" as well ...

I'll be the first to admit that this year has been a rough one. Between receiving an Autism diagnosis at the age of 21 [yes, you read that correctly. I went 21 years feeling like something was wrong with me before receiving my diagnosis], dealing with a huge transition period in which my boyfriend will be moving too far away for me to even comprehend, and having to leave the fall semester before finals due to malnutrition, things haven't been easy. I feel like I push myself beyond my limits just to keep my eyes above the water while other kids my age are soaring high above water with their heads held high. I feel cheated a lot of the time, and I try to remember that it could be worse and that God will never leave me to fight this alone, but some days are just harder than the rest I suppose. Today was one of those days. I have been missing a lot of class for the last two weeks due to being in unforgivable amounts of pain, and yesterday I found out for sure that I need to have ...